Every night I go to bed, I have thoughts swirling in my head. Things to do. Scrapbook pages I want to create. Gifts I want to make. Skills I want to learn. And, of course, daily happenings that I don't want to forget, but invariably will by tomorrow morning, only to pop up in a random thought weeks down the road. So, here I am. I may use this blog daily to empty my head and heart before cuddling up in my duvet, or as it may be, I may write in it once a month. Who knows. It is for me, but perhaps something I write or learn may spark a fire in someone else. Perhaps it may quiet a mind or make you feel like you are not alone out there. It is for me. But perhaps it is for you.

Monday, October 18, 2010

The Working Mom

There are days that I am so inspired in my classroom, I am so glad I chose to be a career-mom. There are days in my graduate work, that I have such epiphanies and joy, that I am thankful that I am surrounded by such warm, caring, thoughtful educators. But mostly, I just want more time with my son. I only have a few months left of graduate work, but until then, I feel like I am not a part of my son's life, but merely the evil woman who wakes him up to drop him off at daycare every day. These days I feel unneeded...what a switch from my maternity leave. I am in the role of the working parent now, although my husband does work too, and I do NOT like it. Does my son still see me as a caregiver? Does my husband still see me as a mother and a wife? How I look forward to January 12th, when I will return home as to my family rather than to my office to work until after my son is in bed. How I long for the night when my son wakes up and calls my name again. How different things were not too long ago.

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